The First Step...

is the most important and the hardest...

I live a very full life. I have a very demanding job, I study, have family obligations, friend obligations, pet obligations... etc... and a to-do list that only ever seems to get longer...

I try to remain positive though - I think there's already too much negativity in this world and I don't really want to add to it if I can. But every now and then, things get a little much and I need to vent.

During one of these venting sessions to my very patient and very honest housemate, he asked me what I did for fun...

At first I was confused. He asked me again what I did for fun - something that was just for me, just about me and didn't rely on another person, or vice versa.

.... I had nothing...

It got me thinking. A lot. I have a lot of stuff in my life, but I'm not really getting much out of it. If I was going to be brutally honest, I'm not even sure if I even really like my life that much.

Even more honestly, I'm not even sure if I like myself that much.

So, rather than continuing down the same path and ending up a bitter, resentful person, I've decided it's time to embark on a journey to reclaim my life and learn to love it, and myself, again.

I have decided to write it in a blog so I can look back and see how I'm going.

For the record, that conversation was about 2 months ago. Since then, I have started something I have been meaning to do for years - I took a short course to learn to play the guitar - and loved every minuite of it - even the sore wrists/fingers and that cursed F-chord! lol.